[原创]《虚构》外五首（80后）

陶原

<p><font face="宋体"><strong><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;">虚构</span></strong><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">用这个下午的阳光</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">淋浴你身上薄薄的雪<br/>和你总充满异味的下半身</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">你借微风当床</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">花粉从门缝中挣扎<br/>传播</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">这个下午的乌云被你</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">使劲挤出一滴牛奶<br/>湿润了一条小河</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">在汇流处</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">你发现你的眼睛早已干枯<br/>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br/><strong>转盘</strong></font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">我每天都要把自己浪费在这个大盘子上</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">不停的旋转</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">车辆和美女也这样不断重复</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">旋转 旋转 旋转</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">有时能碾出一地的粉末</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">散发奇异的香</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">我努力的加快速度</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">和粉末亲密地接触</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">有时时间被打上了死结</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">我就减缓或停顿下来</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">这时</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">幸福就会倾斜<br/>疼痛就会喊出了疼痛<br/>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br/><strong>“停下来”</strong></font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">在</font><span lang="EN-US"><font face="宋体">7楼，你声音艰难的被传播<br/>这是第9次<br/>不，这是第10次</font></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></p><p><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;">“停下来”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #2a2a2a;"><font face="宋体">这个下午</font><span lang="EN-US"><br/><font face="宋体">疼痛在你的身体里找不到安息的地儿<br/>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; 2008.4.28</font></span></span><strong><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><p></p></span></strong></p><p><font face="宋体"><strong><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">致<span lang="EN-US">ZD——</span></span></strong><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">下午，无数个瞬间告诫我</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">四月的疼痛与幸福</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">在指间上升 下沉 上升<span lang="EN-US"> … …</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">诗歌单纯得像清晨的阳光</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">艰难的呻吟被意外吸引</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">此刻<span lang="EN-US">&nbsp; 请</span></font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">把你发霉的眼睛发给我</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">把你地动山裂的心脏发给我</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">把你的疾病发给我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">让病毒一触即发</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">传播 展开 感染</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">让我承受疼痛与幸福的包围</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">穿过我的内心和伤口</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;">&nbsp;<p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">让我守住疼痛</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">在凌晨三点呕吐幸福</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><strong><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">情侣山的夜</span></strong><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">我颤抖的手指</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">顺着恋人的目光摸到了山的脊梁</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">空洞的手心</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">被天空和大地的荒凉</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">彻底的审察 通过 放行<span lang="EN-US">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">用胜过白天的激情在夜晚奔跑</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">我的内心充满矛盾</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">我害怕一抬头</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">就看见山的脸庞</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">一病不起</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">我害怕一伸手时间打盹</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">幸福打滑</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">散落一地的粉末<span lang="EN-US">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><font face="宋体"><strong><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">醒着</span></strong><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">凌晨，我将自己呕吐出来</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">幸福被烟头灼了一个大大的洞</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">疼痛就会延伸</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">摸摸自己的脚趾和手指</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">残留的温度</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">像患了一场流行性疾病</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><p></p></span></font></p><p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">陶原急需送进你的急诊室</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">然后隔离 观察</font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;"><font face="宋体">软禁在病室<span lang="EN-US">1314号</span></font></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt;"><br/></span><font face="宋体"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; 2008.4.29</span></font></p>