一个乡村诗人关于饶恕的话

沐吉阿介

<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 16pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><a href="http://blog.photo.sina.com.cn/showpic.html#blogid=4d84bcd40100beu4&amp;url=http://static1.photo.sina.com.cn/orignal/4d84bcd4x6fd81191f900" target="_blank"><img alt="" src="http://static1.photo.sina.com.cn/bmiddle/4d84bcd4x6fd81191f900"/></a></span></b></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 16pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><strong>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr></strong>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr><font color="#66cc00" style="FONT-SIZE: 14px;">（阿妈&nbsp;<wbr></wbr><wbr></wbr> 开隆国摄影）</font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal">&nbsp;</p><font color="#0000ff"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 16pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><font color="#000000"><strong><span style="FONT-SIZE: 16pt; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">《一个乡村诗人关于饶恕的话》</span><font size="3"><span>（三首）</span></font></strong></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><font color="#000000"><strong><font size="3"><span><p></p></span></font></strong></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; tab-stops: 180.75pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">■普光泉</font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; tab-stops: 180.75pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; FONT-FAMILY: 楷体_GB2312;"><font color="#000000"><span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><span><strong><font color="#000000"><font face="Times New Roman">1.</font>喊了声：“阿妈！”<p></p></font></strong></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">她头顶一场雪，腰老实弯下去，背驼成一团，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">两只乳房彻底干瘪了。走路，依靠一根磨旧的拐杖，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">每走三四步，要歇一口气。看人，要双脚与拐杖一起，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">站在地上，头偏起，上抬。看一半天才说，你是某某某。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p><font color="#000000">&nbsp;</font></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">以上向你描述的，是我啊妈，<span lang="EN-US"> 80</span>岁。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p><font color="#000000">&nbsp;</font></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">昨天，她从啊喇乡彝寨来。她先没打电话，说怕花钱。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">她来城里（炳草岗），十楼。她的老四儿子（我）、儿媳妇、孙女，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">住在这楼层的中间单元。我打开门，见她上气不接下气，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">手里抖动着一小蓝土鸡蛋……我心猛颤。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">赶紧俯下身扶住她。眼泪直流。喊了声“阿妈！”<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt;"><p><strong><font face="Times New Roman" color="#000000">&nbsp;</font></strong></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><span><strong><font color="#000000"><font face="Times New Roman">2.</font>一位乡村诗人关于饶恕的话<p></p></font></strong></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">这个秋天，回到乡下。我无意间在一个乡亲的旧笔记本上发现：<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">饶恕一株小草，随风吹到了墙头那边。（<span lang="EN-US">1985.2</span>）<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">饶恕一块暗藏的石头，在春耕第一天，损坏了犁铧。（<span lang="EN-US">1986.</span>春）<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">饶恕几个娃娃，给我那嫩生生的小瓜，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">塞进石子。然后，在通往菜园的路上，挖闪脚坑。（<span lang="EN-US">1987.5</span>）<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">饶恕村长，在冬季征兵中做手脚，让我失去当兵机会。（<span lang="EN-US">1988.2</span>）<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">饶恕隔壁家那群鸡，争先恐后，吃光我家地里的青菜。（<span lang="EN-US">2000.7</span>）<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">饶恕父亲的幺妹，那次来我家借钱，父亲说没有。父亲死时，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">她看都不来看一眼。路上见着，我依然叫她幺娘。（<span lang="EN-US">2002.9</span>）<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p><font color="#000000">&nbsp;</font></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">二十年来，我白天种地，夜晚写诗。总想能当个真正的诗人。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">我知道，这是癞蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">我的阿妈、我的婆娘、我的娃娃——饶恕了我的固执、偏激。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">我每个月都会投几份诗稿出去。渴望回音。渴望发表。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">我祈求编辑老师，饶恕我一次次的打扰。原谅我自不量力。（<span lang="EN-US">2008.12</span>）<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><p><font color="#000000">&nbsp;</font></p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; tab-stops: 180.75pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 15pt;"><strong><font color="#000000"><font face="Times New Roman">3.</font><chsdate wst="on" year="2008" month="11" day="24" islunardate="False" isrocdate="False"><font face="Times New Roman">2008</font><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;"><span lang="EN-US">年</span></span><font face="Times New Roman">11</font><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;"><span lang="EN-US">月</span></span><font face="Times New Roman">24</font><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;"><span lang="EN-US">日</span></span></chsdate><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; mso-hansi-font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">记事</span><font face="Times New Roman"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;">&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><p></p></font></font></strong></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">下午五点半。昆明火车站。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">像一把刀子，割我的脸，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">寒风不断吹来。坚硬的风，划一下，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><font color="#000000"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">走了。再来</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; mso-ascii-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font face="Times New Roman">……</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">我向售票口走去，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">有个似乡下中学生的小妹跟上我，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">“大哥，耍不耍呢？”扯扯我的衣角，她说，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><font color="#000000"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">“我在前面走，你在后面跟来，耍一次五十元</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; mso-ascii-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312; mso-fareast-font-family: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font face="Times New Roman">……</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;">”<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">“不耍！你别扯。”我小声说。她还来扯。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">“不耍，我的钱被小偷摸了。”<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">她愣了一下，停在我后面。我走了十几米，<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><font color="#000000">回过头，见她在扯别人。我忽然，对这地方充满焦虑。<span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></font></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span></p></span></font><span style="FONT-SIZE: 12pt; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; FONT-FAMILY: 仿宋_GB2312;"><span lang="EN-US"><p></p></span></span>

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曾蒙

问候新年

凉夜

第二首的构思很特别呵

沐吉阿介

谢谢<strong><font face="Verdana" color="#da2549">凉夜 曾蒙</font></strong>